Who Knows You?

Who Knows You? I was sweating. An unshakable grimace that I didn’t even know was there, expressed my inner torture. My grinding teeth crunched on my crashing thoughts: I’ve got to tell him. What is he going to think? I don’t know what else to do.         Oh S***! But if I don’t say it…         I’m screwed. … Read More

The Battle Begins

The Battle Begins A Series of thoughts on the idea of freedom from an addict’s perspective. Before the battle, begins the fight. Long before you take the field, the real test starts. In order to know which flag to pick up, in order to know who your enemy is, you must begin by knowing yourself. When you are unknown. When … Read More

Twilight and the Night

Twilight and the Night A Series of thoughts on the idea of freedom from an addict’s perspective.   Real dreams are authentic expressions of one’s highest self. That means when you have the dream, it will require more than you are yet able to give. You will have to work for it. You will need to increase your capacity. Dreams … Read More

What is your Sobriety Worth?

Warning: Stop reading this now if you want the easy, quick, and convenient path. We know that road all too well and it leads to death. You are welcome to join the others walking it.   What is your Sobriety Worth? If you want to choose freedom, you must dare to ask difficult questions. It is only in honest reflection … Read More

Empathy vs. Sympathy [Video: 3min]

Empathy vs. Sympathy   A few blogs back we showed you one of the most important videos about healing from addiction: The Opposite of Addiction is NOT Sobriety.  In that video Johann Hari tells us that human connection is critical for healing an addiction. In this short video Brene Brown shares (via a cartoon) HOW we can connect and what … Read More

Darkness is for Others

Darkness is for Others A Series of thoughts on the idea of freedom from an addict’s perspective. When the darkness of doubt envelopes you. it is easy to feel alone. Surrounded by enemies of shame and uncertainty, you may retreat into yourself, building walls of withdrawal.   Isolating from the scrutiny of others soothes, at least for awhile. Building fortifications … Read More

Freedom Takes Flight

Freedom Takes Flight A Series of thoughts on the idea of freedom from an addict’s perspective.   Freedom is leaping. Taking flight. Jumping into mystery. Leaving a place of certainty and moving towards the unknown. Freedom is action in motion. Without action there is no freedom. Action is the application of truth. Without that application, what freedom do you have? … Read More

Seed Dreaming

Seed Dreaming A Series of thoughts on the idea of freedom from an addict’s perspective. Dream big in the night. Planting seeds of success in the day You will sleep sweetly.   When you wake tomorrow Let your waking breath Give life and hope to others.   A growing tree of transformation, Bearing fruit of faith In the wild.   … Read More

The Pain of the Should

The pain of the should A Series of thoughts on the idea of freedom from an addict’s perspective.   Oh the harshness, the hatred, the self-loathing we put ourselves through! Oh the pain of “the Shoulds” that reign supreme yet live stealthily in our lives. “Shoulds” lord it over us. We let them pass into our hearts unguarded, without question … Read More

Addiction is a Lonely Liar

Addiction is a Lonely Liar I was trapped. I wanted desperately to escape. Like a trapped animal I would have chewed off my leg if it meant my freedom. Yet no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t escape my own destructive behavior. But I tried. At some point I did everything I could to escape: fasting, prayer, reading books, … Read More